Unemployed
My last day at British Telecom was the 2nd of July. Truly I can say that nothing substantive happened in the two years I was there. I changed a lot, though.
My biggest worry is that my focus skills, my determination to do work, my interpersonal practice has atrophied. I’m scared that I’m not going to enjoy my next job starting in August and that when I start it will be another two years of not being challenged or engaged.
It’s only been a week, and I really haven’t done anything significant. I’d like to use the current heatwave as an excuse. I should be doing the last finishing decorative touches on the flat and unpacking books and board games, but I really do not feel like moving.
Other things to think about would be shifting focus from triathlon to aquathlon (so no cycling). I am quite far behind everyone else in my age group when it comes to bike power. I have a better chance of doing international competitions if I focus to swim and run.
Every weekend of unemployment I have something planned. I may not get the long stretch of ’nothing’ that I think I’ve been wanting. Time will tell if that was necessary or not.